Yay so I finally finished the poetry month challenge, albeit extremely late. Like I said earlier, I’m suffering from a severe lack of inspiration so who knows when I’ll post another poem but I enjoyed this challenge.
at this point
my heart is probably pumping
pure red wine, all my blood
is in the redness lining my eyes—
my hands have been busy
bringing the liquor to my lips,
replacing you as my oral fixation
even though i tell myself
alcohol is better than nicotine
i know poison is poison
regardless of name
because i left my reason
on the tip of your tongue—
its something i know
but always forget.
it’s two in the morning
and i feel you in my lungs
and i regret never trying
to learn how to sing
without getting embarrassed
you still laugh at me
sometimes
but i never let you know
i couldn’t understand the notes
i never had good instincts,
like those people who know
what a goodbye kiss
tastes like before it reached their lips—
that could’ve saved us
from those agruments
that seemed to empty my veins
like a terrible flood
that sweeps up and grabs
everything it sees—
you always could sing
even though you’ve long stopped
singing to me and now it seems
we’ve long forgot what it felt like
to ignore the lyrics
and get lost in the instrumental.
they say happiness
isn’t something you can buy
i say give me some money
and let me give it a try.
you ran your fingers
down the highway
of my spine
and all i could do
was hold on
to the thrill.
keep me like a secret
pressed into your temples
in the outskirts of your mind—
i wore your favorite skirt today
like a battle scar
that aches
whenever it gets too cold
i’ve broken bones before
and i know that after they heal
you still feel them
dull and throbbing
reminding you
to be careful
next time.
please give me your hand
close your eyes and imagine
this is all you need.
take me deep inside
exhale me like smoke you want
to feel but not keep.
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY